Kicking Sundays

I took Bub to Lewes on Sunday and we went to Bills and ate glorious food.  I also had a most delicious bloody mary. I have for the most part kicked the resentment out.  But it does still lurk around.  I wish things were different.  But they are not.  But I wish it.  See.  Lurking.  It is not anything I can do anything about.  Apart from, say, change how much I care.  Or really, its a case of trying to kick the bad feelings out in as quick a time as possible.  The big treat nosh up at Bills (oh I LOVE that place) did help a lot.   Thing is, being as how I tend to be, one bad thing can lead to a whole host of bad thoughts,  and I then tend to wallow around in hideous self pity.  Hey, at least I recognise it! 

some affirmations....

I am making progress with my art ambitionsI feel inspired by other artists.
I am very together and focused  and going places
My dreams are within reach
I  love my husband
my family are easy to like. I am  likeable
I am rich
our house is good order and tidy and lovely
Hub is slim and fit and takes excersise and does not get type  2 diabetes
I am in control of my own destiny

grrr.  KICK!!

ah, speaking of goals and stuff Team Next Step or Moving Forward.  Damn what was that name?  Anyway, its still happening and pretty impressively achieved despite the Snow Day.

This week I have got my business cards in my hand (and handed out to folk - at least 10)
I have printed out my work and get 10 laminates done for the show on Wednesday
I have finished the painting in the sitting room
I have finished a final to show E version of H and O
I have recruited at least 4 people to Hub's focus group (50 - 60 yr olds, young at heart, outgoing, articulate, online shoppers..... in Brighton....  know anyone suitable? let me know!) 

That is my side of the bargain of Moving it Forward.  Hub has his own list.  Last time I felt like this (it comes in cycles evidently) I started a right GIVE UP SUGAR for a week.  I don't know what ever it is that means I stop obsessing about things that upset me, that I can do nothing about.... that is the thing.  SO OK  Magic.  I want help from the Universe and I want a boost and I will give up Sugar.