time for a return to get stuff done?

I have been slight bereft of the internet these last few days.  While I envisioned a week long of being able to browse as much as I like has turned into not actually having time to browse hardly at all.  And today at the gallery.  In a bit where i couldn't actually read my book any more. (I KNOW what has happened!!) I started to think that I perhaps miss the focus that this blog was initially set up to create.  I mean, somehwere in the google reader are all the posts I wrote.  And they were mainly about stepping up my progress towards my dreams and goals. 

I have totally loved the more involvedness of actually meeting fellow bloggers or taking part in e courses and postcard swaps etc (I am behind behind behind in posting about them btw and I have been sent some gorgeous things....) and yet, the simple, here is my list of stuff to do that keeps me moving forward has somehow seeped by the wayside.  I dunno, perhaps it hasn't its just that some of these dreams and goals are actually happening and now its time to think about 'what next?'.  I did really want to be earning money, and now I am, and meeting people and making friends and now I am, and of course going on the art retreat DWYL which I am deeply excited about (3 days of PAINTING  - and meeting new friends - woo hoo!!!) 

I feel that maybe a sort of lull, followed by some new stuff to go for.  At the end of the day my ultimate goals of being wealthy enough to follow the life I want to lead (not working a job, and having lots of friends and lots of holidays and doing yoga everyday, and being super creative and having a camper van sort of stuff) remains the same.  But the little goals, day to day  (oh the house being done up, for example, oh, and having a studio!! I forgot that how could I forget that...)

Hmm.  And the other thing is I got on the Yoga Teacher Training.  Which is now an actualy big commitment for the next two years.  I didn't really take it that seriously as I just didn't take it seriously that I would get on it this year.  I am already missing the first session due to this retreat I am booked on!  And I am going to have to find 5 hours a week to make it work.  OK that isn't that much, but even so, its not like I have time apart from working or looking after TEd.  OK now I am writing this, so it will be my internet hossing about time that gets taken up with it I guess.....

I am also slightly nervous about what I have taken on. In that I excitedly told one of the other teachers (who is also a mummy and comes to my playgroup) that i got on the course and she exclaimed, 'Oh, its amazing.... LIFE CHANGING...."  and then added that she left her partner, and in fact ALL the other ladies in her year did...... Hmm.  Not sure I want it to be THAT life changing!!  I don't mind life changing in a good way.  But it now seems like it might be a really BIG THING I am doing.  And I am a bit nervous!!  Well, being a yoga teacher is something I want to do.... so here goes nothing! 

Anyways.  I will be thinking about bringing it back down to some simple steps.  LIke decluttering and tracking expenses and all.  Get it back under a little control before I spin out of it! 

more photos from the weekend

photso first

I am most annoyed that my lovely gallery has taken the lap top off for mending when I am there ALL week.  No hossing about on t'internet for me then.  SO here are the photos and will be linking it all in when I have the time my lovelies.  And in fact only 2 of the pictures..... at Beas and some fabulous nail polish...

getting used to the pace I reckon

Just a quickie cos I haven't got the photos uploaded yet and all of that.  But had a FAB weekend.  On Saturday went to the UK bloggers meet up and met in person many of the peeps whose blogs I have been reading for ages, and some others who I haven't yet but will be now.  It was girly and fun and we basically ate and chatted for 9 hours.  And strolled through the 'riots' while we were at it!  I will post properly about it as I do have some photos and I need to do the whole linky thing which will take a long time!!  And then today, having originally been left just me and Bub while the boys (Hub, his brother, and his eldest son) went to a football match in London, well instead me and Bub hopped on the train and went to lunch with an old pal and his boyfriend whom I had not seen since Bub was a baby.  It was great.  I am not even insanely cream crackered!  I must be getting used to it.   This week I will be in the gallery Mon, Wed, Thur and Fri.  So hopefully plenty of time for surfing and figuring out how tweet deck works.  All is good. 

Ladies, you know who you are, you are ACE.

I want a hair cut

Am obsessing about hair cuts.  And hair styles.  I have long long long hair.  Its think and dyed a rather dreaful auburn.  I am loathing it.  I want something that is sassy and a bit edgy but not so edgy I look ugly.  Ugh! its so hard! I want a brilliant intuitive stylist to discuss my options at length and then help me to a hair cut that is good but actually suits my face.  Where is that stylist?  And what is it that I want done? 

yogurt, visitors and rest

I went up to London yesterday and did a full day supergroup inventing flavours for yogurts.  And became a total convert to Rachel's coconut yogurt.  WOW.  I would never have bought it but it is the most amazingly delicious stuff ever.  I particularly like it with mango puree.  I hope that they bring it out with the mango flavour...... fingers crossed. 

It was tiring though, especially as I didn't go to bed until after midnight (what am I like? - stayed up to finish my prep and then Hub came home late and then... then it was just late) and had to get up at 5.30am.  Supergroups are fun but tiring as you are creating ideas all day.  OOH I crashed into bed at 9pm! I feel SO MUCH BETTER today.

Today Hub's brother is over and his eldest Son is also coming, which is a stretch on our tiny house.  And as I went to bed early I have been cleaning and making up beds since this morning.  I also have to illustrate a whole Bub story as Russells present.  And do a load of admin for Hub.  Hmm. And there was me thinking I could get my hair cut.....

still.  ALL GOOD.  and the admin is invoicing.  Hub has done really well so far this year. At least he will have done when they all get around to paying him! 

I too have done really well. Am averaging over £1000 a month.  like £1200 so far.  Go me. 

staggering to the finish line, enjoying every bit

OK its not that bad.  But I am starting to feel weary to the core. I am not sure how long it has been now.... a month? two? that I have pretty much been working non stop.  And every day that I am not working is a big social event or visit or something.  Monday was my nearly last day of nannying and then in the evening I went out with a good friend to see Bjorn Again  - oh it was BRILLIANT  - as a 10 year old I loved ABBA with a passion and i know ALL the words without even knowing I do.  If you see what I mean.  They were so so very good and got the whole audience up and waving our arms in the air, singing our hearts out as if we were all uninhibited 10 year old girls having the time of our lives!!  Then, Yesterday we went to London Zoo, all of us, as a family.  It was fantastic (Lions! Tigers! Okapi! Giraffes! AMAZING!!!) with great weather too.  But you know, a bit of a frantic prepare vast pack lunch, get packed up and out the door, do LOADS of walking ALL DAY and then back home.... And it was honestly the first day Hub and I could do for.... I don't know, A LONG TIME.  We have both been working our socks off.  And tomorrow I have another day - Supergrouping, so brilliant, well paid, great work.  But a 5am start and commuting and it IS mentally exhausting to be generating and honing ideas at high energy levels all day.  I will be wiped!  But there we go.  Oh, no sorry, then we have Hub's brother and son coming over from Ireland to stay.  So a massive house tidy (god its a tip!) and getting the food in for 2 extra men.  AND THEN on Saturday am off to London for the UK blogger meet up.  Which I am totally looking forward to!! So still ALL GO. 

I have at least got some good food in the house now.  I have had a green smoothie today and have just eaten nut cutlets with brocolli and spinach and sweet potato.  YUM. 

WEll I had better go, try and do a bit of that house clean up today so that it is not ALL left until tomorrow night.....  OH Bring it all on.... I mustn't complain, I must just eat well and do my yoga and all will be fine!! 

a great day

Today I didn't do anything for work.  My very good old friends came to visit me from London bringing their two sons with them.  The weather beamed at us and the sun shone without wind and the beach was glorious.  The trip to the Sealife Center was a massive hit with the boys and the picnic lunch meant we enjoyed a Pizza Express (and rose wine) dinner.  It was such fun, the boys enjoyed themselves and played really well together.  And it was just lovely to see my friends. AND my friend C is engaged to her fabulous boyfriend.  SO we have a wedding in October.  And I can wear my new winter frock (bought in the sales this January!)  Most excited all round.  It was just SO LOVELY to have such a gorgeous day for our get together.  Brighton felt amazing and seasidey.  And to cap it all, due to the equinox... the tide went out super low and Brighton beach had these vast sand banks which just made the afternoon kind of special.

fingers crossed we stay healthy

I am seriously hoping that we are not all going to go down with a nasty tummy bug this weekend.  Today M, one of the wee boys I look after arrived looking a bit peaky.  His mother is a friend of mine and apologised that she really had to be at her event to at least set it up and to call me if her boy got worse.  He was definately under the weather and we got through til lunchtime when it was apparent that he was getting the runs.  Twice he got them in the toilet and when the third time he didn't make it, I called her.  Cleaning up runny poo is definately beyond the call of duty.  And then he vomited.  Poor wee chap.  And poor me.  Utterly disgusting.  I sprayed everything (almost) with dettol spray, but it seems that he went home and continued to be ill.  I just hope that this doesn't spead.  Apparently her husband refused to take the day off even though she asked.  If we all get ill am so going to be on his case!  grrr.

However the rest of the day was lovely.  Bub and I went round to my friend C's house where there was a gathering of the mums  - the girls I hung out with when we all had newborns - every week drinking tea and eating cake and coming to terms with mother hood.  The others all have 2nd children now.  2 have moved away so it was just 4 of us there today.  It was lovely.  The 3 yr olds all got on really well and I got to hold the little babies (the littlest just a few weeks old)

Then I popped out to a private view  - the daddy of the wee boy I have been nannying for is a painter.  And got home to some nice emails.  Holly Becker from Decor8 saying, yes do please come along to her book launch, and an invitation to the screening of Project Nim, a documentary feature I worked on very briefly last year.  My life suddenly feels all glamourous!  Thank You Universe!!

Doing What You Love

As you may know I am signed up to do the Do What You Love retreat in May.  I am utterly looking forward to it and given as I leapt and trusted that the Universe would indeed provide me with the means to earn lots of money before then, I am really pleased to say that Magic really does happen when you follow your dreams.  I haven't really stopped working since!!!

Beth, who is running the retreat mentioned somewhere (tweeted?) that she has been invited to the Decor8 book launch at Libertys in London.  And I have to admit I felt a massive pang of jealousy when she did, especially the bit about getting her sparkly shoes out for it.  Or sparkles and shoes. ......  anyway..... I felt somewhat in a funk about it for quite a while today.  "I want my life to be MORE GLAMOUROUS" was essentially the whinge.  Well I do!  I do want that!!  And then all I could think of was how decidedly UN glamourous my life is right now.... poo. (literally, at the moment with this nannying mallarky)

But also.  ALSO.  It made me think about how, actually, I am doing an awful lot of the things I LOVE in my life.  And while some of the things I love might be to get dressed up and be invited to a cool book launch and go to Libertys (I LOVE Libertys, and if I were (when I am?) RICH I would definately shop there a lot!.... But I was thinking about things I love and how, I love quite a lot of things that are not glamourous.  I was mainly thinking this as I snuggled in next to my Bub as he fell asleep, and he muttered, "cuddle me" and I did, and, well, that is pretty cool.  I am cuddling my son who wants to be cuddled by me, and I LOVE that.  I love him of course, but that moment there, of us snuggling together and how wonderful it is and how much I love to be with him.

And then, I branched out.  And I realised that 'Doing What You Love' isn't just about living the big fancy dream.  I love doing some really quite banal types of things.  And I had a realisation.  You know I LOVE doing my playgroup! I do! I love it!  I am essentially a very sociable person, and as a youngster I worked in cafes, I did barwork, I ran clubs, I hosted A LOT of parties, and dinner parties.  I love to be sociable! And doing the playgroup with my friend who does the reading stories part and the singing bit.  I basically run the cafe bit.  Making tea and chatting to everyone.  Where I live there are some fab people who come to my group and I love talking to them all.  I really do love it. 

And creative thinking.  I LOVE having ideas.  I could fall over myself for ideas! (putting them into practice and finishing things, that is something I need to work at) But I do it and I get paid to do it!  The Supergroups I do, are basically about getting together with a bunch of other ideas people and brainstorming and having ideas.  Its GREAT!  I LOVE IT! I am DOING WHAT I LOVE  -  AGAIN!

And I WORK IN A GALLERY!!.  I get to sell art to happy people and read books or surf the internet (I love surfing the internet too!)  AGAIN.  Here I am, doing what I love. 

So I have, basically cheered myself up a lot.  I still want to do a bit more of some other stuff.  And here's a list.  I am putting it out there to the Universe so that I can be a good example!

Fancy Dress parties (love em)
Singing Along (oh - and I forgot, I am going to see Bjorn Again with my Uni pal, L, and we are going to dress up!!  cool.)
Glamour  - being invited to cool book launches at Liberty for example.  Or maybe going out to visit A in Ibiza again for a weekend.  More going to Paris for Valentines.  More travel and more eating in fabulous restaurants. More being able to wear my posh shoes. More work that takes me to Chicago or Paris.  That sort of thing.
Being creative in terms of making ART (roll on the retreat!)
More parties and DANCING
Eating fabulous food in great company
Hanging out with my very good, old friends
Making new great friends
TRIBE
earning LOTS of money doing things I like doing
Camping
Sun Sea & Sand
making people happy
Making my house look beautiful
having a cleaner
pedicures
massages
Hub getting on with my parents
discovering and listening to great music
styling!  I LOVE styling. 
Feeling inspired! Going to art exhibitions, the theatre!

proud mummy.

The absolute and utter highlight of my day was meeting with Bub's 'key worker' at his preschool.  I nearly cried with pride the whole way through our meeting.  He is exceeding half of the 'key stages' for the first year of reception.  But we knew he was good with his numbers and letters ('amazing' apparently).  But she raved about his focus and interest in everything they do, how he makes them all laugh, is the only one who can play some of the rhyming games that she does, how he plays well with the others, and gets so absorbed in exploring the world.  Along with a whole load of photos of him doing things like using a pair of scissors, or joining in dancing games, or using the headphones to listen to stories on the CD player, or spending ages working out how to fill up bottles using a funnel or whatever.... that he is an absolute joy to have there.... and the little book they sent us home with comments of what he has been up to there....... I am just bursting with pride.

tuesday

I am so deep into childcare right now, it is hard to even think of anything else.  Just getting through the day is a massive achievement.  its funny I used to feel like that with just one itty bitty baby!  now here I am on my second day (how do mother's do it?) of 3 wee boys.  I must say I am amazed at how well it has gone.  its a bit like they can tell that they (the 2 oldest anyway) can't be messing me around toooo much and have been really splendidly helpfully well behaved, especially on the difficult bits of getting to and from the park.  I had envisaged hell.  perhaps that is why it all actually seemed so simple.

and yet I did manage to get out and go to my yoga class last night.  it was great, but also an eye opener.  it was taken by a near graduate of the school, going through one of her test classes. WOAH.  I have a LOT to learn. But hey.  I am very glad I am going to be learning it.  I can't think of anything that will be better for me in my whole life to be honest.  I can carry on learning this until I die.  Goodness me I am rather preoccupied with this aging mallarky at the moment! I think its because I just CANT have another child.  I wish I could I really really do wish I could.  I mean, its not utterly impossible.  But it would be without the support of my husband.  Which would make it pretty damn hard.  ach well.  there are other things.  yoga will help.  all round it will help. 

I am eating a very very delicious dinner.  Its broccoli, big mushrooms, courgettes, kale all chopped up (well mushies, sliced) lightly stir friend with ginger and garlic, some soy sauce, some sweet soy sauce and some rice.  not much rice though.  ooooh its most tasty, oh and a tiny bit of chilli.   tip top loveliness.

Tomorrow I actually am not working in the gallery and am looking forward to just spending a wee bit of time with Bub on his own.  I am really starting to look forward to next week, well tuesday next week, when all of this crazy nannying thing slows down.   It did all go well today, and with 3 of them I am starting to relax a bit, but even so, there is this perpetual state of near anxiety that something will go wrong.

growing up

I dreamt both about doing Yoga Teacher Training (my old uni pal, who is already a yoga teacher decided to do it too for some reason....) and the Do What You Love retreat (beds were extremely small and in a shed.... not the actual case luckily)

I have to admit to a huge sense of feeling very very tense.  I had a chat with my mum about her and dad planning to sell their house and perhaps build an eco house.  I guess the whole idea of my parents being too old to cope is what set it off.  And them selling our family home.  Its such an amazing place I am already deeply sad at the thought of it going.  They don't want to move either, and its frustrating and sad.  My mum did truly seem excited by the idea of building and living in an eco house.  I decided to back up that idea, of it being exciting and she seemed really really relieved.  She wants it to be exciting she said, otherwise its just a slow packing up of life into smaller boxes.  I guess I am having a minor mid life crisis or something.  I do feel on the verge of tears and not just the whole parents dying idea, which I just can't imagine, foolishly perhaps, as of course it is going to happen one day, but also that I can't have any more children.  I really cry at that too, though its unrealistic in so many ways to be wanting another one.  But I guess that I can't go back into that, means I am facing the rest of my life, and that I am older, and getting older, and my parents are getting much older and my family home will not be there any more one day, and nor will they.  I think that since I have left home I have always thought that if things go very wrong in anyway, I could always go and live back at my parents house.  Its a crazy big old rambling house with plenty of room, so its not impossible.  Well, it wasn't....... I also feel slightly resentful that Hub and my folks do not get on, or that I don't have a Hub who would willingly up sticks and go live there too.... and be helpful and useful and help keep the old house.  I guess I can't really imagine life without it there, available to me, to us.  I feel sad and slightly scared too.  Ridiculous really.  But there you go.  Its not just some house though.  Its a special place.  It really is.  It has a hall, and my grandparents lived there too, and we had our wedding there, Bub was conceived there, It had my grandparents funerals there, my cousins and my brother got married there.  WHen I was 9 my school plays were put on there! There were always lodgers, and Christmas dinners for 20.... I had notions of running creative retreats there.  Life without it there will somehow put me in a place where everywhere is small.  When my parents bought it they paid £30,000 for it.  It was run down (still is) but there is no way that we could ever afford somewhere so big now.  They just do not exist.  It is just heartbreaking really.  And I know it is for them too.  They love it and do not want to leave either.  I really must go and buy that lottery ticket eh.....

I GOT IN!!

I got on the Yoga Teacher Training course!!!!!!!!! wow! in 2 years time, all going well, I will be a trained Yoga Teacher.   Its a big commitment of course and will require hard work and dedication.  But I am very very excited.  Of course, get this..... the first day of it, coincides with the Do What You Love retreat.  Can you believe that.  Still.  That can't be helped.  Will get all registered and then talk about that with Jim.  Hope it doesn't dash things for this year.  I am sure I did mention it. 

WOW.  things are GOING WELL. 

Thank You Universe.  I LOVE YOU!

first day of 3 boys done n dusted

Blimey.  So that is what it is like to have a big family!  Actually it went really well and I kind of loved it.  It was hard work but also - I got a lot of cuddles! 

ah.  Creative Stuff.  What happened to you?  I am looking forward to received my stitched postcard swap.  Apart from that its so so very far away.  But the income is all good.  It means we are on track and the reality of spending 3 days painting and hanging out with other creative types is proper going to happen.  Next week my girlfriends are coming to visit me, and I am going to see Bjorn Again with a pal I was a student with many moons ago.  Some good fun stuff is coming up.

phew

life is extra busy and I am so tired and tomorrow I have 3 small boys in my care!  EEK! I am looking forward to Saturday when all I have to do is work in the gallery.  Um, oh actually Hub has just given me some of his work to do.  At £25 an hour I am happy to do this, especially as it all goes towards me going on the DWYL retreat with his blessing, something I really want, almost as much as I want to go on the thing itself.

A while back I rather recklessly signed up for 30 days of Vegan.  I kind of feel not quite in the space for it as life is so hectic.  However I am enjoying reading the daily Nourish Yourself reminders and perhaps with my health verging on slipping into colds and so on due to hectic life and very early mornings (thanks Bub, what is all this 6am stuff at the moment?) and basically working every single day for AGES and AGES (even though sometimes the gallery seems like a day off and time out.....)  Perhaps its a good thing to be drawn back into thinking of well being right now. I am also surprised by how much of this stuff I know and in a way, how good my diet is really.

Still its late and I am very tired. 

Ha! "its late". Its 9.30pm.  It feels like two in the morning!! 

Lots of love out into the world.......

monday get stuff done day

This week and next, I am a nanny.  My charge is 2 yr old K.  He is, luckily, adorable and very easy to deal with.  What a darling.  And what's more, Bub has been a lovely darling too today.  Hurrah!

I went to the bank to put in my first entry of the FFF (financial freedom fund) I had been putting in something (anything) everyday. And it was £132.  OK not much so far, but this has come from chucking spare change every day.  So not at all bad.  We are, because everything I do is CASH at the moment, overly overly cash rich.  Perhaps its easy right now.  Cash is everywhere!

Oh blimey.  Just got another last minute supergroup tomorrow.  Phew I am working working working it baby.  Go Me.

And Universe, thank you for providing a wise ear.  Blessings.

Lastly, this evening i went to a yoga class and it just so totally worked for me.  Last time I went for some reason I got really angry with it.  But I got so INTO it this evening, and was not wussy when things were difficult, but stayed in the poses. I really feel quite floaty now.  And so calm and centred that I was able to TELL Hub that I am going on the DO WHAT YOU LOVE retreat.  He was a little bit huffy, but not so much that he didn't actually write it down in his diary.  I had been dreading that moment for some while, so I am glad I was able to go at it with total calmness.  I mean.  I am going.  But I did want it to be OK with him too.   I feel very happy about this.

up very early tomorrow to be brainstorming ideas about global future energy use idea (green energy / smart boxes etc) circa 2030... kind a cool

dear universe

Hello Universe, I have a request again.  I must say I am deeply thankful for all the opportunities you have given me so far this year to earn some money. All those days in the gallery, and the Supergroup and the recruitment...and being Kit's nanny for the next two weeks.  Today I need something different.  I need someone to talk to.  Its just that I feel so uspet and frustrated by somethings and I feel that there is no one I can talk to about them.  And I just want someone really wise, who can listen and be wise about my situation.  Please can you send me some wise counsel.  Much appreciated.

hello!!

I went to work in the gallery today and they had taken the computer away!! darn! I had to read my book!!  It The Corrections by Jonathan Franzen.  Its actually very good and very readable.  But its just depressing!  The characters are all so f**cked up.  I don't imagine its going to have a happy ending either.... and I had to keep stopping because it was just so unpleasant and made me think that like the world is not a very nice place and so on (or it maybe that I am nearing that time of the month where life can seem bleaker than it really is?? hmm?) So I was going to post earlier, but now its later and really I just want to go and have a nice hot bath and go to bed.  Good news is that I have found the lead that connects the iphone (my camera, these days) to my laptop... well its good news for me anyway.  Other good news is that I found the Ergo Baby Carrier (I had left it at the Friday Playgroup, and someone had handed it in, bless em, it being worth a lot on ebay and all)

For the next two weeks I am basically being a nanny.  I have K, who is 2 and very sweet 2 days and 2 mornings.  And then on some days I will have M too.  Which I am not looking forward to.  Not that M is not lovely, but Bub is going through, er, behavioural *issues* which basically means he turns into a wee devil and is a bit of a mare to cope with at certain points, like meal times or getting out of the house, and the time before last that M was here, Bub really bullied him and would hit if I left the room.  So 3 little boys....... I am hoping to swap Bub's nursery days around a bit so as to minimise the hell!! 

Hub has been finding Bub very challenging lately.  Well, Bub is 95% of the time delightful and then 5% extremely challenging these days. and is worse if he is tired. which is always as he keeps getting up the moment its vaguely light.  I dunno 3 yr olds eh?  We kind of sailed through the 'terrible twos' and seem to be hitting this now.  Basically, he goes ballistic over nothing.  He launched a full out attack on Hub earlier today because the Ravenous Beast story DVD wasn't working properly.  I mean I know it was disapointing, but it was quite violent.  Its not really what you want in the behaviour of your child.  We are using the 'sit on the step' technique (all we really know, from watching SuperNanny!) Hub finds it really hard not to lose his temper, so do I to be honest.  It is not at all nice to see!  Anyway, we might see if we can talk to someone about it.  Its hard to know quite what to do.  I just hope it ends and is just a phase!!

thinking about future dreams

I am currently re visiting Amelia's Journal Your Dreams week long workshop... and having read some of my old old dream posts.  I am thinking about some future dreams.  Dreams and Mondo Beyondo esque wishes!

I am still dreaming of a big kitchen table and lots of likeminded friends.  All sociable and bright and fun folk.....

I am going to add my dream camper van.... its not just a camper van (though one of those would be very cool) but its morphed into a sort of converted horsebox or hi top lorry sort of thing.  Its like this.... (hope to drag in a photo I have on pinterest here) its painted mat black and it has wooden lining and a wood stove.  Its livable in, but its also a sort of roaming studio.  Its very cool indeed.

For a nearby and achievable dream - I have a fabulous fabulous life affirming soul feeding weekend in Yorkshire for the Do What You Love retreat.  And I learn to paint really big.  Its like a new departure for me and it just lifts off into the stratosphere in a thoroughly brilliant way!

I get on this years Yoga Teacher Training, and that too, is like a fir lit within me and is totally inspiring and life changing in a beautiful and good way.

For some further away lovely dreams I create and set up a creative retreat of my own.  I set it up, build it and people come and its just GREAT.  Its got some sort of theme, like making your own wedding decorations... for hen parties.... or the other one I would love to set up is just like for creative UK bloggers.... that would so cool.  We could all share our skills and teach each other.  And just hang out and talk and deepen friendships! *puts dreaming cap on* xxx

mining the past

THanks to Doriana Gray's clever savvy, I have been able to find nearly all of my deleted postings.  Which just goes to show that stuff you put on the internet might never go away ever. Good thing I am not famous or a politician or anything!  But seeing as the main reason was I wanted to look at what I had written as my first post (it doesn't seem to be there, at least not as I imagined it) but I found this,  which is more or less the idea. Its about dreaming and chasing that dream,  so here is 2 years ago what I wrote about what I wanted out of my life....

My dream life is still filled with fab, cool (in a way I judge cool!!), lovely lovely people - but we have a high ceilinged inner town place - with a big room for socialising and lots of other rooms for separate activities, we have a double bedroom / ensuite sort of thing so if Hub snores I can escape near by. We each have our own bathroom. We dont own a car, but either use city car club or hire cars as and when necessary. Bub goes to a good school, on scholarship - even though we dont need him to. I have another Bub too. we have animals - and some outside space too - so we have a garden / yard, with chickens and a barbeque and outside socialising and we live near the beach. there are private gardens we can use. I am a successful artist like willliam steig. I also have a hugely successful and popular blog that inspires women and that men can but take notice of due to its huge success.






I earn £500 grand a year and work a 3 day week. I study cookery, art and yoga.





that is better.


I also rather like the very goal orientated posting I used to do.  Very much about the details of life.  Like how many vegetables I ate, or how much I spent and so on.  Its probably right old dull for folk to read, but I think it did make me accountable for my move towards my goals.  However I do also have to give myself a fat pat on the back, because I am working in a gallery, I run a successful and profitable playgroup and I do some creative thinking for a living.  I am currently slightly worried long term for being able to have a house full of people... friends are leaving Brighton like flies it seems.  To Goa, to Ibiza, to Stroud, to Cornwall, to Hastings, to California, to Bristol.  At least I will have places to go and visit I spose.....  But I need company.  It is 90% of why I love doing my playgroup so much. 

nothing quite so funny as...

Baby Laughing Hysterically at Ripping Paper @ Yahoo! Video

tweeting

Well it IS spring.  And I have decided to get to know twitter a wee bit better.   I saw a Ted talk yesterday about how it can take 40 hours to learn a new thing, and twitter does need learning.... So I have hooked up with folk I know via email addresses and linked in.

My tweeter profile is moosli124..... come and find me!!