tuesday

I am so deep into childcare right now, it is hard to even think of anything else.  Just getting through the day is a massive achievement.  its funny I used to feel like that with just one itty bitty baby!  now here I am on my second day (how do mother's do it?) of 3 wee boys.  I must say I am amazed at how well it has gone.  its a bit like they can tell that they (the 2 oldest anyway) can't be messing me around toooo much and have been really splendidly helpfully well behaved, especially on the difficult bits of getting to and from the park.  I had envisaged hell.  perhaps that is why it all actually seemed so simple.

and yet I did manage to get out and go to my yoga class last night.  it was great, but also an eye opener.  it was taken by a near graduate of the school, going through one of her test classes. WOAH.  I have a LOT to learn. But hey.  I am very glad I am going to be learning it.  I can't think of anything that will be better for me in my whole life to be honest.  I can carry on learning this until I die.  Goodness me I am rather preoccupied with this aging mallarky at the moment! I think its because I just CANT have another child.  I wish I could I really really do wish I could.  I mean, its not utterly impossible.  But it would be without the support of my husband.  Which would make it pretty damn hard.  ach well.  there are other things.  yoga will help.  all round it will help. 

I am eating a very very delicious dinner.  Its broccoli, big mushrooms, courgettes, kale all chopped up (well mushies, sliced) lightly stir friend with ginger and garlic, some soy sauce, some sweet soy sauce and some rice.  not much rice though.  ooooh its most tasty, oh and a tiny bit of chilli.   tip top loveliness.

Tomorrow I actually am not working in the gallery and am looking forward to just spending a wee bit of time with Bub on his own.  I am really starting to look forward to next week, well tuesday next week, when all of this crazy nannying thing slows down.   It did all go well today, and with 3 of them I am starting to relax a bit, but even so, there is this perpetual state of near anxiety that something will go wrong.