time for a return to get stuff done?

I have been slight bereft of the internet these last few days.  While I envisioned a week long of being able to browse as much as I like has turned into not actually having time to browse hardly at all.  And today at the gallery.  In a bit where i couldn't actually read my book any more. (I KNOW what has happened!!) I started to think that I perhaps miss the focus that this blog was initially set up to create.  I mean, somehwere in the google reader are all the posts I wrote.  And they were mainly about stepping up my progress towards my dreams and goals. 

I have totally loved the more involvedness of actually meeting fellow bloggers or taking part in e courses and postcard swaps etc (I am behind behind behind in posting about them btw and I have been sent some gorgeous things....) and yet, the simple, here is my list of stuff to do that keeps me moving forward has somehow seeped by the wayside.  I dunno, perhaps it hasn't its just that some of these dreams and goals are actually happening and now its time to think about 'what next?'.  I did really want to be earning money, and now I am, and meeting people and making friends and now I am, and of course going on the art retreat DWYL which I am deeply excited about (3 days of PAINTING  - and meeting new friends - woo hoo!!!) 

I feel that maybe a sort of lull, followed by some new stuff to go for.  At the end of the day my ultimate goals of being wealthy enough to follow the life I want to lead (not working a job, and having lots of friends and lots of holidays and doing yoga everyday, and being super creative and having a camper van sort of stuff) remains the same.  But the little goals, day to day  (oh the house being done up, for example, oh, and having a studio!! I forgot that how could I forget that...)

Hmm.  And the other thing is I got on the Yoga Teacher Training.  Which is now an actualy big commitment for the next two years.  I didn't really take it that seriously as I just didn't take it seriously that I would get on it this year.  I am already missing the first session due to this retreat I am booked on!  And I am going to have to find 5 hours a week to make it work.  OK that isn't that much, but even so, its not like I have time apart from working or looking after TEd.  OK now I am writing this, so it will be my internet hossing about time that gets taken up with it I guess.....

I am also slightly nervous about what I have taken on. In that I excitedly told one of the other teachers (who is also a mummy and comes to my playgroup) that i got on the course and she exclaimed, 'Oh, its amazing.... LIFE CHANGING...."  and then added that she left her partner, and in fact ALL the other ladies in her year did...... Hmm.  Not sure I want it to be THAT life changing!!  I don't mind life changing in a good way.  But it now seems like it might be a really BIG THING I am doing.  And I am a bit nervous!!  Well, being a yoga teacher is something I want to do.... so here goes nothing! 

Anyways.  I will be thinking about bringing it back down to some simple steps.  LIke decluttering and tracking expenses and all.  Get it back under a little control before I spin out of it!