inconvenient help

Ah, well the Universe is working in mysterious ways.  OF COURSE I got the Wednesday night job.  WHY? I don't know.  I am very pleased I got at least one job out of it.  I am.  Its more money in the coffers and that is a GOOD THING.  But it is slightly annoying the very evening that Hub had to move his focus group to.   Which means child care costs.  I have to say I am extremely lucky to have a good friend who is also a nanny, who has a daughter the same age as Bub, who knows him well and is also looking to earn some extra cash, and who is willing and able to come around and do the putting Bub to bed routine.  Not something anyone but me or Hub has done before!!  I do have complete faith in her actually.  So, yeah, Lucky!   It will cost us though as she is a proper nanny and charges as such.  But you know.  Its my bub.  And I am happy for him to be with her in so many ways.

I went to see Jim Tarran today, he of the Yoga Teacher Training.  And it seemed to go quite well.  He was very positive about my application.  He liked my letter a lot apparently!!   Which pleases me, so I am now hoping that he will say yes to me for this year.  One of the reasons he liked my letter was that I was in it for the long term and was happy to wait until next year if necessary.  Which is true.  Though I am now very much hoping that I will get in this year!  It is going to be hard work and a big commitment for 2 years.  I need to commit about 8 hours a week apparently.  And will definately need to step up my practice as I am nowhere near strong enough to do it yet!  But we will have to see.  I am very much enjoying getting back into my practice anyway, and its all good for me whatever happens.  I have to remember that I am in it for the long long life time of a time at it now. 

A huge online shop arrived.  Its kind of weird as I have all this stuff that Hub eats, then the stuff that I eat.  And stuff that Bub eats.  I wish Hub would go the healthy route, or at least the non processed route.   But seriously left to his own devices he will never cook for himself.  He heats up.  I guess he just doesn't know how.  And is unwilling to learn.  I honestly would cook for him if he would eat what I cook, but seeing as he doesn't, or often just leaves it on the shelf and it ends up getting thrown away.  I am still trying to LET GO of the desire I have to control his eating habits.....   I wonder if  - well some of the books I read are saying we create our own reality.  Which makes me wonder.  What if I attempted to convince my inner mind that Hub was indeed a fabulously healthy eater and slim?  I may try!  I am out of all other ideas.  Bar giving up entirely.  I might just try to programme a different reality and give up on the actual one.  Or LET GO.  not give up.