Monday, 20 June 2011

feeling overwhelmed

I just went to my yoga class.  Left feeling overwhelmed by the enormity of the task that I have ahead of me in becoming a yoga teacher.  how can I teach if I can't do these poses? how? I know that it is all about going as far as you can go, and that is fine if you are a student, but I am feeling increasingly aware of how not near the 'final' pose I am and how I am definately not an 'advanced' practicioner.  and it makes me feel kind of sad.  I know that this is a Klesa, an affliction of pride and self and so on.  I know its about me letting go of the end result because this striving and falling short of the end result is all against the yamas I have been learning about.  It just feels like a disconnect and that even thinking about it or feeling down about it feels like a two pronged double not right.  And I just feel like a big fat glass of red wine. 

I also know the only answer is more practise.  I feel like one of the crap dancers on dancing on ice.  Like how am I ever going to pirouette or whatever when I can't even skate a straight line. 

1 comment:

SwirlyGirl said...

Ah, poor you, it's not nice feeling overwhelmed - I am sure there are many other Yoga students in your position, maybe a chat to your Yoga teacher will help?
I think you have the answer - keep on practising girl, and yes, letting go of the end result, which I know is very difficult! I've been going to Yoga since January and I have only just been able to now touch my toes and move into plow! You will get there!! Keep Strong xx