musings on today

I have to say am most excited by the expression ideaporn and how totally turned on (ideawise) I got about the talk of technology and humanity of virtual worlds spilling over into reality and technology's interpretation of that reality and how it all inter effects everything.  The way we are.  And how artists were interpreting that. by making real world pixellated sculptures or the finger paintings that mimic the finger marks we make to do something specific on an ipad.  Cool and interesting stuff. Also the whole talk and take on futurology v nostalgia and the oldification of stuff v the modernisation of stuff and the genuine hankering after the new, real and authentic creative stuff that comes at the forefront of now.  The blank page stuff.  the stuff that comes out of imagination and is creatively new, not some rehashing of the past in some hackneyed way.  On the journey (in virtual idea land) I discovered some music I like (apparently already old and on the way to being establishment fodder   - but seriously who cares if you like it) and finally up against Bill Drummond.  WHen I say up against him.  He is merely mentioned in a blog article. But I am astounded by how he features in my key interested and cultural things and has done since he was involved with Echo and the Bunnymen, and how he loved Iceland.  And the KLF (1987 What the F**K's going On) blew my mind, back in, er 1987.  I wonder if it is all coming full circle. Or about to spiral off again.  Who knows.  But its exciting to discover things you find truly fascinating.  Discussions and musings on very interesting, to me stuff.

Yesterday I had a long chat with my old friend M (with whom I loved Echo and the Bunnymen AND the KLF) and it was good to chat to an old friend who understands all sides of me. Many sides anyway.  We are going to collaborate on making 2012 a year in which we take the income up several notches and being valuable.  I have set my figure at £36,000.  Its not massive in terms of millionaires and so on.  But it would make me very very happy to hit that figure.  In a way, its a figure that would mean that I could look after our family.  If need be.  Not that I want to be the only one bringing in the bacon.  But for mine own sense of worth, the idea that I am capable of that, means something to me.

Of course I really currently have no real idea of how I can do it.  But that is my marker.  And lets just see.

A key component of this, is, getting uncomfortable.  OR feeling it.  Getting used to going outside the comfort zone.  It means change and change makes you feel weird.  It might feel wrong. In fact without feeling 'wrong' you aren't actually stretching or growing any.  So wish me luck and courage my friends!

Another key component is building my community.  I have enlisted M into my inner circle on this.  And I shall be documenting it here too.  Me being uncomfortable.  Hmm should be interesting reading huh.

I like it as, in my Yoga Teacher Training, my teacher told me that you know you are getting on in your practice, not by how bendy you are, or how good at Asana you are, but in how well you can sit in uncertainty.  Which fits the whole out of the comfort zone sort of life.

SO to kick start my anti comfort regime.  I got out of bed early.  I did my Yoga practice this morning.  I got an hour in before anyone else surfaced.  Am pretty chuffed with myself for that small effort.  

stretch might thus be my word of the year.  Stretch up and out and go beyond.   Stretch and Flourish.  Bring it!