Day 3

(NOTE - I did write this yesterday.  On the ipad.  And then it wouldn't pubish.  I don't know why.  I need to visit the genius bar to get some technical assistance on various things...... but here is the cut n pasted and emailed to myself post I wrote....)

Day 3
Am on the iPad. At the kitchen table. I am eating a bowl of cereal. I am not feeling altogether well in the belly. I am not sure that the whole kefir experiment is going as well as it should!!

Bub and I spent the day at a friends new house. It's a proper cottage in the deep dark woods. Down the end of a muddy lane. What a swell place to live! Those boys of theirs are going to have right good n  fond memories of
growing up roaming free in the woods. A stream at the bottom of the garden. A little bridge, acres of forest, lots of moss and lichen and badgers and rabbits and all. Must say I felt a twang of jealousy and cottage in the deep dark woods envy.  Even though I do love my Brighton existence!

I have returned not feeling entirely right, not in my gut (literally) and not in my self. Something needs attention. I am not yet sure what. I feel as if I am teetering on the edge of something else but not knowing what it is yet. I am Unclear as to what way. Do you ever get those moments? It's like a crossroads but all the paths are still to be discovered. Ach. Something. I've that. Or maybe it's all nothing, and I just feel a bit iffy. And it will pass and all will resume. 

OH........(realisation)  maybe it's because the big goals that were ahead of me for a long time are now passed, or ending soon. And there is this sense of, lost ness. What now ness? My yoga teacher training, is nearly over. (well, if I pass it is!!!!) and it's been two years.  Similarly with work, since meeting the People Who do,  the plan has been to get me out there, managing and delivering the AP workshop, and now I am. So whereas it did have this end game, it's now not got an end to it.

I need to think and work out what to do next with both those areas of my life, neither have an end point or a
next step to them!!

Well, I guess I have at least worked out why I feel nebulous and unsure! Off to work out some new goals / end points and some new next
steps......

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