So, I did my class today. It went really well, I was very happy with it. Work to do with more observation and areas where my language could have been clearer. But my favourite bit of my feedback was that I taught with 'calm authority'. I am pretty damn pleased with that. I must admit that last year there was no way I could have ever imagined getting that sort of comment.
I am really pleased and relieved it went well. Not that I am through with it yet (well, I shall never be 'through' with it, its a continuous journey....) I still have an exam and a final assessment. Which may include poses I don't yet know how to teach very well. There are SO MANY to know.
Me and my fellow final year yogi students are going away next week to stay in the gorgeous Hawthbush Farm. As we are going midweek we have a brilliant deal on the whole of the Cowshed. So we will each have a double or a kingsize bed and bedroom to ourselves. It a very lovely place. And we will be there studying for our exams, practicing all these poses which I can't remember.
mainly the parivrttas or revovled poses. and adjustments in inversions. and and and......
I am proud of myself. And this is my realisation. And its something Hub used to point out to me, which wound me up no end I can tell you. But I think he was right....... I don't think I ever really pushed myself very hard. Or, I didn't reach far enough, or try as much as I could have. Teaching today went really well, but as a yoga teacher, I will be doing that same amount of effort and attention for every class. And this is the kind of level I need to be doing all the time. Its not something I just reach once and then relax (which is how it feels today I must say). I need to step up to the plate every single time. And keep doing so. And keep trying to do things I don't think I can. Because if you try and you keep trying, you can get there.
I did a back bend the other day. I have never been able to come up into it before. It seemed impossible. And now I can. I can do crow pose too. It is odd, it was just a balance thing, not strength, or flexibility. Just daring, and leaning forward more than I thought I could.
So keep trying. Keep it up. No resting on laurels (though at least I do have some laurels....)
2 comments:
My fear of failure often stopped me pushing myself. But i think there just comes a point where something clicks, whether it is contentment in your life, or maturity etc, i dont know, but it all falls into place.
You shoudl be proud of yoru self :)) x
aw, thanks. I guess I am. (smiles)
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