dreams and dreams

this might be one of those posts that gets left on the editing floor.  not that there is a floor, for bits of unedited text to fall onto.  Maybe a digital cloud somewhere, taken up with writings not exactly published, but stored in draft form all over the backrooms of tinternet.

Maybe I will publish. 

Dreams and how to make them a reality.  My last post, re blogged a post by Danielle Daniel.  I first read her blog many moons ago, and she was just starting out, ish.  A bit like I was.  And now she is teaching at an art retreat.  She has really found her voice it seems with her paper mache dolls and kooky quirky style. 

And I immediately wanted to know that one day I would be writing that post about how I finally am teaching at an art retreat.  So hey, there's a dream to fulfil!!

and it made me think of the very first post I ever put on this blog.  It got deleted somehow.  ironic huh.  I know I deleted a shed load because I was a bit moany in the posts, about people who exist, and I decided that, it wasn't on for me to do that in public.  So I deleted all my really old posts. 

But that very first post was all about how I really wanted to live.  I remember it.  I envisioned a large kitchen space, with chickens in the big garden outside.  And - actually that is mostly all I can remember.  I think  I had a big yoga studio and an art studio, and lots of great friends all coming around a lot and it being this hub of creativity and friendship.

I want to vision again. 

SO.  in 5 years time.  That is in 2018.  (my that is crazy)

It is 2018.  I am *(old!) I am very happy, and very healthy.  Bub is also happy and healthy.  So is Hub and my brother and my parents.  Nuff said.  We are happy and healthy.

We have a converted attic in our brighton house.  It is also extended so we have this big kitchen with a sofa in it.  And a BIG table.  There is always a big table in my dreams.  And its a really lovely homely, creative, welcoming, friendly kitchen.  It has a roof terrace on it, or at the very least a meadow roof.  Because our conversion is very green and energy efficient!  Yeah! we have electricity panels and hot water panels there too. 

We have an upstairs bathroom and my studio is - in the loft.  or the back bedroom.  or the front one and Bub is upstairs.  OR we all have a room each anyways.  to be in.  And there is no TV in the big kitchen which is also really the living room.  We have a piano in the house. 

We feel happy and at home and sociable here. 

I am teaching yoga and art retreats and working with People Who Do (because all of these things make me happy).  I have published a book.  And I have a very succesful blog.  I am wealthy and can afford many holidays and trips.  We eat healthily and well, and organically and locally sourced as much as is possible.  We grow a lot of our own vegetables. 

Hmm, this is interesting.  Its mostly everything I have already, but better, more established.  I guess this means I am on the right track with it all.  Just further along the line with it. 

AND - there is something yet undiscovered which is going to be big and interesting and exciting for me in this time.  a new track which builds on all of my experience and takes it up a level.  and its really really really good and fun and lucrative.  

so,  things to do.  Make sure I practice my yoga teaching.  my art teaching.  my own yoga practice and my own art practice.  keep going.  its all good.