oh hey

its been a while. 

I went to visit an art studio again.  I really want to sign up to it.  I also really want to sign up to another online course (or two) and an in person workshop in september.

the art studio is £155 a month.  Its not very big, but its in a complex where there is shared social space and room to host workshops.  I want to have an art studio.  I want one in a place that has a shared social space.  It fits with a dream I have about having an art studio where I can host art workshops and also have feasts and social times.

In my dream the studio is mine.  Like I have a room big enough to have a big table in it myself and host in there.  SO its not quite right.  And right now I don't actually have £140 a month spare.  AND YET.   it feels like the right opportunity.  Am going to sit on it and see how much I still want it.  You know, after a few days.

I have also been rather ill, with a bad sinus type cold.  And a friend - is dying.  Has died.  Is leaving this world.  In a beautiful way. And was a beautiful loved shiny person who had a good life and who has been ill and has decided to let go and leave.  Its emotional.  Not a very close friend of mine, but someone I really liked, admired, was fond of.  Am fond of. 

I think the studio feels shiny.  I am going to wait and see.  How shiny it is still.