Stepping Away from Facebook

I went to sleep at about 9pm last night.  And woke up  - well - depressed.  Honestly its the only way to describe how I feel.  That, or just really sad and on the edge of tears.  It could well be hormonal.  So hopefully its that and it will pass.

The other thing is the state of the world.  One of the reasons I decided to leave Facebook alone for a while was because of the endless policital anger, outrage and despair that is plastered all over it since the Brexit fiasco.  And now the labour party fiasco.  And meanwhile we have a primeminster no one voted for and it seems no opposition.  Its chaotic and I have to say I have no faith in the conversative government to make decisions about things I care about in ways that I feel will help the country.  I feel that we are being lied to and they will be going ahead with the dismantling of the NHS and the academisation of schools regardless of anything I or anyone else can do about it.  But that they will say they are doing what is best for the country.   And then there is Trump.  Jesus what a scary prospect that is.  He's just awful.  And yet, people seem to believe that he is 'standing up for America' or some such.  And on a really local level, the trains - Southern Trains are not managing the network.  I don't agree with Franchising off the national rail, and i believe it is the government that should ensure that the infrastructure of the country just WORKS. They just cancel trains, have commuters packed in like cattle and running slow in the 30 degree heat.  God knows.  What is the world coming to. 

And I snuck back on to facebook, because - i am probably an addict - and also because there are some nice things there too.  Like my cousin's visit to the UK and Michelle Obama doing car pool kareoke.  I may at some point sneak back on.  But hide posts from anyone who puts up articles about depressing things.

However, I got drawn into reading some articles, and after reading them I just felt so angry and scared and upset.  I saw one cartoon which said "My desire to be well informed is at odds with my desire for sanity"  -  that just about sums it up.  I think  you can say  -I do not want to see posts like these.  But its a tricky business.  These people are my friends and I agree with what they post.  And I too, think its a really dodgy situation we are all in.

I know its my fault I snuck back into it, and starting reading stuff.  And no doubt I will slip back into my old ways again.  But for now, I am reinstating my decision to step away from it and do 29 gifts.  I just need to go there again.  I have taken FB off my phone, and now off the ipad, and I am using the freedom app on my computer.  Because I need to step away from articles and scare mongering.  It might well be scary but I just cannot see what I can do about it.  I don't want to be someone who puts their head in the sand and hides as the world distintergrates.  But I do not know what to do.  And I don't want to feel scared and worried by things I cannot do anything about.  I have voted and I have an MP who at least stands up for stuff I  believe in.  And  - there.  I do not know what else I can do.  IF anyone has any ideas, then please let me know.  Anger and frustration without control, or action.  Is not healthy.  Its not doing me any good.  And I am backing away from FB.  And the news.  I will talk to people about it, as that seems OK, but nah.  I can't do it.

Am off again.  I am going to re read the actual 29 gifts book.  And I am back on the giving.  Namaste y'all.  I kind of slowed on the gifts thing by being literal.  I was on the 29 gifts site and noticed a comment from Librarian Lou that "Cami’s kind of giving is motivated by giving others delight, like making a  meal for husband or finding that just right present.  She also talks about receiving gifts graciously from others." So I will be less pressurised on my self for the whole actual present thing and just be motivated to give others delight.  Hence - so far today I gave a hearty compliment to a lady who lives in our street who has changed her hair colour.  It looks FAB.  I hope she was delighted!

 And just to say, when I say I am stepping away from FB.  I will be not going there to read or browse.  If absolutely necessary I will post there, (I did find our electrician from the fab Hanover Community Notice Board for example) and my blog posts and instagram will feed through to it.  So transmitting but not receiving via FB>  contact by email, here or  - by phone if you know me!

xxxxx