Big Chat

I am craving some BIG chat.  I'm not quite certain what I mean yet.  That is, I know what I mean, I am just not quite able to articulate it.  Its that kind of conversation that rolls off itself and onto more and more.  Where I feel I have a lot to say and everyone is excited by what we are saying and it feels thrilling and meaningful. 

I have been listening to some podcasts today.  Just conversations between enthusiasts  - or maybe just enthusiastic people?  Anyways it got me thinking and wanting some inspiration and inspiring conversations. Just putting it out there.  Perhaps it is the end of the lazy hazy days of summer? Wanting the gritty of working conversations.  Wanting to get back into it all. 

And another thing I thought as I sat at my computer, working.  I don't really enjoy working at a computer.  Really not my thing.  I did however, enjoy inventing dishes out of what I have in the house.  I really enjoy that.  The cooking and the inventing.  I made a stir fry with pudding rice, onions, grated carrot, some sweet potato, peas, ginger, garlin and tamari and an egg.  It was delicious.

I am really enjoying emptying out the fridge.  Eating it down.  Something clearing and decluttering about it.  We have such a tiny fridge and often that annoys me.  But actually we still throw food out - which I HATE!!  And its so nice to look in and see everything.  And know that I am not wasting anything.  And I was thinking about SUCCESS and how important it is that we define it ourselves.  I do enjoy the occasional hotel visit and putting everything on expenses.  Well, you know, taking the cab, getting the laundry done, eating out.  Being extravagant.  But I would not love that to be all my life.  I enjoyed making something out of 'nothing' today.  I like to be creatively frugal as well as extravagant.  I like to not waste stuff and buy second hand things.  Not ALL the time, but not none of the time either.  So I got to thinking about my own success.  I would like to have my finances sorted so that I am not running on empty, or borrowing from savings to pay for everyday expensese. and I don't like to work that much.  I don't want a full time job and I don't want to have to rely on childcare and cleaners and so on.  But I would like that some of the time.  And I want to go on nice holidays and stay in Hotels and to eat out. 

I want a simple lightweight business.  I want to spend time being creatively frugal.  I want to earn a lot of money too.  And I want to go on lots of holidays.  And I want to work out of the home and work with people.  I'd like to create stuff and share the joy of the doing of the thing.  I want to be around inspiring folk who like to laugh and cook and eat and be healthy as well as have wine or dance or do yoga and all.  These are the things that make my life enjoyable.  And to have lots of cuddles and affection.  And hot baths!! and lots of sleep. 

I think the next step is to get the loft converted and rent that out.  And also to do more art journaling courses.  Because I love that.  And to work with people.  I like them.  I feel a bit odd having spent today working from home on my own. 

So regarding the art journaling. I am going to be doing day long workshops  - not weekly drop ins.  Or a course.  I may do a course.  Perhaps this is something to do online after all. 

Lots of love.  Just musings.