out of the ball park success - what does that mean?

I was reading something.  I think by Tara Mohr.  About imagining what "out of the ball park" success means for you.  And I have to admit, that this week I have been on an utter downer.  Its a bunch of stuff.  Probably am not feeling well, and that made me feel down, and then I was panicking about finances and the whole mortgage thing (ours ends in 10 years, which suddenly feels near) and gah.  stuff.  Terrifying myself with horror stories of the menopause.  That sort of thing.

And reading that suddenly made me realise that wow, I had been curtailing my dreams right down to what I was considering the very possible.  And often, this week into a sort of survival mode of worst case scenario.

So this morning I wake up feeling terrible.  In all honesty I went to bed at 9pm feeling terrible.  But this morning I realised I did have a horrid headache, and my tummy felt bad and it all wasn't healthy and good.

So I cancelled all my appointments to stay in bed and recover.  And my friend Sally May had sent me a video she had seen by some chap called Dr Joe Dispenza and I was going to watch it last night.  But ended up watching it this morning.  He's like into quantum stuff, which I sometimes find too much and unreal, but he put it in ways that made sense.  At least, it did make me realise that I had been on a bit of a downward spiral with imagining worst case scenarios, and perhaps I did ought to look out for best case scenarios instead.  And I watched the video and he goes on about pure consciousness and meditation and the field of potentiality.  And I'm thinking, I know some of this stuff, and this makes sense, and hell, may as well blooming try it because, nothing to lose.

So have chosen to ditch the worst case scenario thinking and cheer myself right up with some "out of the ball park" good.

Like for example I have been wanting to run an art retreat for ages, and suddenly someone contacts me looking for an artist to run retreats at a beautiful centre in Greece (Rhodes).  So you know.  That sort of thing.

And so.  What a lot of preamble.  Out of the ball park success?  means different things to different people.  Sally was coaching me yesterday as I wept  - oh dear I was feeling a right weepy yesterday - and so a bright future.  Is one where I am not worried about money, I am relaxed, I have a yoga studio and an art studio and I go on lots of holidays.  And help people.  That was what I mustered yesterday.  Today I my plan is to muster up something more rounded, and well, out of the ball park.  Cos according to Dr Joe, I can manifest that in the field of potentiality.