daily reflections WEdnesday 19th July

Written for myself.  Out of the head pouring stuff.  Oh my my head is full of stuff. Like nonsense and sensical stuff.  am going to clear it out right her right now. Firstly a whole load of nonsense, Love Island.  My head is actually whirring about that stupid programme!! WHy do I care about Marcel and Gabby? What is that?  And then the house in Croatia and the franticness and not workingness of that right now.  I understand that what will be will be and that the best that can be done will be done.  And yet generaly unease about the floods, the set up there, the rules of Croatia and how not to upset folk there.  I think that once the house is settled down a lot then it will even out and be super easy to manage.  Its only going to be let out during the summer isn't it.  And then its just friends and family and stuff.  And its just going to be so that we get our money back and have a house to go on holiday in.  Nothing more.  It will all be fine.  It WILL. Its building works and a deadline.  Its soooo hard to get it all done on time, what with floods and rules and it being so far away and all.

SO that.  And then painting.  Just paintings.  Images in my head.  Ideas, thoughts, dreams, notions.  All flying around like crazy beasts.

And here.  My reflection space.  I need to do the clearing first isn't it.  CLEAR that head full of stuff.

So.  What IS working.  Well the painting weekend went really well.  I was super happy with it.  And its got potential for something really lovely and beautiful and transformational and magic.  Hub is doing loads around the house and looking after Bub and stuff like that so I feel supported.  Bub got a good report and is back on track a bit.  We have plans for the summer and for the autumn. I am back eating healthy again after about a week of slightly off kilter eating.  I had a great chat with Cheryl about coaching   / training collaboration.  And that excites me an awful lot.

Could be better.  Our house, moving the offices, the tidyness of it, and the garden. Has also stalled.  Need to move that on again.  We need a shed for my Art Stuff.  I am short on work in the Autumn and need more of that please universe.  I feel slightly discombobulated.  Not sure why.  Yesterday was too much social media for sure, it never helps.  Slightly disconcerted by the notion of having to provide kit and lunches.  Not having to, I don't.  But the idea of providing those for folk who want more of that sort of provided for experience.  Re jigging of my mind about the Wild Painting workshops.  Wanting to make them mine not just inspired by others.  Thinking of lots of things. Lots of head whirring.

What to do about all that.   - more meditation.  Less social media.  better eating.  more exercise.  morning pages.  do morning pages.

Get ready for Dance Camp East.  Fact that I am camping all next week fries my head slightly.  Not prepared PLUS I have to come back as Ted's school term isn't over yet!! for goodness sake.

Hope its not raining and cold and windy next week.

OK nuff.  Over and out.