Journalling works for me.

I went to see The Big Sick last night.  Bizarrely instead of laughing my socks off as I had expected I wept and wept my way through it.  I recall that i also wept through another Apatow film, Knocked Up.  Which I totally blamed on my hormones and being pregnant.  Maybe I am hormonal again at the moment? Never the less I wept and wept.  I am not even sure why.  It was so sad - not at the end, it was all OK at the end, but the relationships were so touching.

What am I like? I got home though and felt really sad.  And woke up this morning feeling despondent and weepy.  I think it is hormones.  Either way, I decided to journal about it all.  And to keep writing until I felt better.  Which I did.  Journalling does help.  I mean there are somethings that I can feel sad about.  But there is not much I can do about any of them.  And I don't normally weep about them.  So it felt good to just sit and write and write until I felt better.

In a way a lot of it was wanting to be listened to and heard.  Even if what I was going to ramble on about was nonsense.  I guess when you are feeling emotional, and or sad, that is what you want, really isn't it.  And I wasn't getting the ear I needed from Hub yesterday.  Mainly cos he wasn't feeling very well, and also because he always just tries to logical it out.  And I just wasn't in the mood for being told I was talking nonsesnse and there was no actual reason for me to be sad.  I didn't want that. That just made me feel more sad.  Which of course doesn't make "sense".  So.

Anyways, just to say, that I do now feel better, and bless his cottons, the Hub is being super sweet and lovely (even though he totally does not at all understand why I wept at the very funny film) I do feel loved.

So.  Journaling works for me.  That's what is working.
I aim to do very little today.  I think I just need the rest.  Motivation will come back.  I don't need to push for it.

Bestest Y'all.