It's not about the money

from my art journals 

Just had a bit of a revelation. It has been percolating for quite a while.  (Possibly will not be the last time I will have it.  But it feels sure and solid today.)  

It is to do with money.  I find money incredibly fascinating.  Not in a 'I want to count my gold' kind of way.  But as a concept, and admittedly, as a personal struggle.  I have read so many books about it from all sorts of different angles. I have managed it super carefully and survived on hardly any of it.   I have wanted more of it.   

I am now 'in business' to 'make money' and  - you know - on many levels I need to 'make more of it'  because I want to pay off this mortgage, and I want to go on holidays and have my own art studio and all those sorts of things that money can help with.  

And yet there is this notion that money isn't anything.  It's an 'energy' its a 'fuel' it's not even a real thing - just a cypher absorbing anything we project on it (Charles Davis I am referencing you here) - and as such a tool to discover how to become more whole. 

And despite all this it somehow eludes me - like I just don't get it.  Literally. HA!  I mean, I am fully aware that I am in no way poor, and my position in life makes me part of the top whatever percentage of the world in terms of wealth and fortune.  But I still don't get it.  

SO back to today.  And my revelation with regard to money and my mission the world. Hard to just say it, or write it, but fundamentally - it's not about the money. YES I do need to live (and yes I do want to pay my mortgage off and go on holidays and all that stuff)

But it's just not about the money any more.

I want to make a positive difference in the world.  End of.  

I am working on exactly how.  But it will be using my talents and skills.  I expect it will be to do with creativity and connection.  And creating a future.  And enviromentalism and feminism.  Togetherness.  Making your own fun.  Humanity and divinity.  These kinds of things.  

Just sayin. 

yes it's possible. from my art journals