Two things I have read just now that make me feel better

firstly; and I am lifting this directly. Thanks to Cage Free Family

I am returning to doing what I want to do. I am releasing all ideas about what I should be doing and embracing the flow of things, moment by moment. In this I will allow myself to be carried by excitement and joy of doing my best in every moment, so that the series of moments run together creating the most beneficial outcome for me and for those around me. At the end of the day I will feel, neither drained nor taxed, but rather peace in having acted in accordance with what I value and want for my life.
I am going to allow my words and thoughts to reflect this new perspective as well. No more, "I have to," and no more "I need to." Instead I will have days filled with "I want to," and "I am."

and secondly. food for thought here.

There was also a post on Bindu Wiles about letting go. There are lots of posts about letting go on her site, I don't even remember which one hit home.

I am all screwed up in a mental ball at the moment. I guess it will shift when things shift. Or maybe I just need to get a new stance on everything. I am so angry and upset and sad by so many issues to do with who I am and what I want and what the hell I am doing. I am not it seems one of those wise bloggers who posts the answers to everything. I am wading through the middles of my mess and trying to make some sort of sense out of it. I want to go into massive details but I have promised not to get personal. Its my stuff. I mean, other people do not get so upset, so its me. Its me playing some sort of victim, refusing to let go of something I hold dear, that perhaps I need to just LET. GO. OF. I am a mass of shoulds and musts and trying. I love the letting it go affirmation from Ms Cage Free. I would like some of that in my life. And I so feel I am also walking around like a very very annoying person so wrapped up in my own troubles about how the world is treating me, that I am forgeting that I am treating the world badly and inconsiderately as I do so. I saw my dearest old friend today. She is shiny and happy and I felt quite constricted as I spoke to her. Unable to leap into ideas and play with possibilities and get excited about life. I know I can be full of life and energy and enthusiasm. Where has it all gone? Why do I feel so tiny, trapped, as if my real voice is unable to speak, like I am stuck behind some veneer of myself. I know the answer is just to forget about it, break out of it, break its hold over me, break free..... Something has got to shift. I am starting a bit of a health kick tomorrow. And am also going to try optimism, kindness and doing what I want to do. Its all worth a punt.... I cannot stay like this forever.