more ill. and a conundrum

So yesterday, I blew my snotty nose and my ears popped. like when you are landing on a plane sometimes.  only they didn't pop again and my hearing went and my ears kept hurting.  I looked up natural remedies on the internet and basically they all seemed to say, that when it gets to this point you need medical help.  So today I went to the Doctors and she said I had a perforated ear drum and lots of nasty looking stuff in my ear.  I am now on antibiotics.  I still can't hear.

So tomorrow is my brother's 40th birthday party, in Hackney, in London.  My parents are going for couple of hours.  I feel I really should make the effort to go.  Bro has said that I can stay at his house (I have keys and he has a spare room) and Hub says that if if I stay he will be unable to sleep with worry about my safety (wandering about Hackney at night time).  I find it infuriating that I should not be staying because of Hub's threat of his not being able to sleep through worry as I feel his fears are - not unfounded - but excessive - I mean my brother and his wife live there and have not been stabbed in several years of living there.  And I am not afraid of being stabbed.  I am touched that he cares of course.  It is nice that he gives a shit.  On the other hand, I am also actually ill.  And deaf. 

I am thinking (as I write) that I could go and leave when my parents do.  Hmm.  Its a shame.  I kind of fancy a wild night on the town with the (not so) young trendsters of Dalston.  However.  I think the being ill factor might not be good for that neither.    Boo. 

I dunno.  Is Hub wrong to worry so?  Am I wrong to get so annoyed?  little bit of both maybe.