Wednesday, 19 January 2011

small bummer

I just missed out on 4 days work at £250 per day.  Am gutted.  Nothing I can or could have done about it. its just the way the cookie crumbles.  Annoyingly I also (this month) missed out on the gallery job as they wanted me on Fridays, and I had already committed to babysitting on alternate fridays til March this year.  Am not lucking out on the work front in the same way I did before Christmas.

I have done 2 days without coffee, and also with greatly reduced dairy intake.  Mainly just in cups of tea.  And I haven't eaten meat. And I have had my green smoothies.  But I still was  hoping that i could have gotten a grands worth of work in 4 days.

I really want to go on the Do What You Love Retreat.  But I need to earn some money to do that. Its not a cheap chappy.  Looks great, and I love Flora Bowley's work in particular.  It all just seems so far away everything at the moment.  Just now.  It seems the other side of a big wall.  Where other people can go.  I love my life and I love 'my side of the wall'  But how can I justify spending £1000 on a retreat for  4 days? I guess I had sort of secretly hoped that by getting that job of 4 days work for £1000 it was a step towards being allowed to go. 

Please Universe, can you help me? 

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Urgh, how frustrating for you! I also want to go on loads of courses and things but am struggling to justify the ££...

Did you get my email btw? I sent one to the address that pops up when you leave a comment on my blog x

HowtoBEaCOOLoldLady said...

Kat - no I didn't. Will leave a different email for you as I don't think I check that email.....

Anonymous said...

YOu should definitely do it. There must be a way. And it could be a legitimate business expense so you can tax deduct it.
Lizzie