joy

sharing the joy of spontaneous self expression

which pretty much sums up.  a lot for me.

I am thinking thinking thinking so much at the moment.  things are shifting in all sorts of really interesting and good directions.  I am wondering if some things I thought i wanted a lot are going to actually go sideways or off to the backburner to fizzle out and not be as important as I thought they were, because other things are going to bubble up and become centre stage

I while a go I wrote a on a card, which is stuck up on the wall in front of me right now,

I commit to being an artist

at the moment, this is the calling that is coming through more and more.  Its a pretty broad category to be honest, and has all sorts of spin offs, but its the activity that I am loving most at the moment, and I have this feeling that...... it could work.

And I am a teacher.  Not in a school, but that I feel this, urge to  - share the joy of the doing of the thing.  And the thing is  - spontanious self expression, creative expression.  or art.

So maybe I am an art teacher.  But in the same way I am a yoga teacher and I practice yoga, I am an artist and I practice art.

I have all these little notes on the wall in front of me actually.  Another one which is really strong is

'provide pure magical energy and connection between souls'  which I also feel strongly.  Its bringing people together to share something.  Something real, that is recognised as human and important

I have this thing at the moment about human needs.  And art, and self epression is a human need, as is connection with others.  And feasting, hosting, breaking bread together.

And I have another hurried little note, on a post it. Which says "waiting to implement changes makes you already one step behind; DO IT NOW"

And that bit.  Makes me think of the changes I have been thinking of making and how, i need to do them now.

So, randomly, from that, I am going to give up sugar.  I may even do that very Brighton thing of giving up wheat too, but then I may just cut down on that.  I am also considering being a vegetarian.  I definitely want to do more exercise (it always slips) and I want to paint more.  Do it now people, do it now, whatever it is.