updates proper journaling stuff

I need to write.  I haven't done it in a while.  feelings of holding back because this is a sort of public space.  thinking sod it. do it anyway.  old school.

blogging old school.

things are going good.  sorry for no capitals.  this isn't for publishing proper. this is just me rambling and finding my thoughts as i go.

they are good.  lots its good.  I have got my 2nd course of wild art journaling up and running and full.  I have a wild painting weekend scheduled and more to come.  I am getting enquiries and new clients for all of my work, the coaching, the personal effectiveness coaching and all of it.

I am not worrying about money (though there is a slight nagging feeling that perhaps I ought - I certainly haven't gotten around to doing my book keeping.  yes it bugs me a bit that.  needs to get done)

The house is progressing.  The back room is getting a carpet next week.  We have a bed and shelving for it.  The garden - I have to design a shed.  blimey.  its all go.  

I wonder how much Sue b charges for her workshops.  I wonder if I need a contract.  I guess I do.  I think it will make me proper.  Proper.  there is a word i am using a lot in this blog.  there is doing stuff and there is doing proper stuff.  like writing using proper punctuation.  like what I am not doing now.  I like writing like this.  am going to anyway.

So I have been asked to submit a book proposal.  I am holding an idea that even if nothing comes of it, then this is a very good thing.  and I am also holding an idea that this is going to happen and it is going to be fucking amazing.  I don't know what the book in me is, though.  So theres the thing.  am thinking currently that I should hop on a reatreat with Alexandra Franzen and find out, what the book is in me.  I am definitely going to journal.  about that.  journal.  that's a thing innit.  and its not writing.  writing is like doing it properly and journaling is like making something out of nothing and letting it ramble until something useful comes out of it.  So I shall be journaling / blogging more because.  because.  if I just start.  then perhaps the book will emerge.  the book.  my nascient (is that a word>?) ideas is something along the lines of naming it after this blog.  so Create your life / Get stuff done.  like a productivity get fucking started manual for creative minded folk.  Or create magic.  rituals to kick start creative flow.  or some such.  organisation and structure for creative minds.  these are my ideas.  so how to write a book proposal?  and make it rock.  creativity rocks.   brave art.  (ha ha) and how to be a stARTist: rock your creative.

ideas -  ten a penny.  meat on the bones that's another thing.  a short book. punchy.  meaning ful.  the artists way for urban modern old ladies.  how to be a cool old lady.  these are the things I want to make books about.  they will look amazing the art direction will kick ass.  of course.  and they will be messy and graphic and a mash up of crazy wild art and super structured graphic black and whiteness.

how to wild art journal?  How to live a creative life and be really alive.  something along those lines.  ah.  simples.

well.  this how to write a book proposal mallarky.  big magic.  that is what I want to write an art big magic book.  with podcasts.  How to get started, and finish.  for creative entrepreneurs.  how to make it work.  ok am going to stop now.  sleep.  tomorrow more.